I dunno whether i should be happy or sad to type this entry.....I really think i have a problem myself...sometimes i feel really happy like when i am in school...but during night time...when i m alone doing homework...i feel sad...about certain things that happened last year...and i just dunno why i m pessimistic about stuff....like i always look down on myself...sometimes i can be really happy...but someday i can be really moodless or no in a good mood....(in which i start ignoring people tht i know)....
I dunno why...i dun respect my parents....although i know they have done something wrong last year...and they realise the mistake...sometimes when they scold me...i would always like get that feeling...u guys have done something wrong..why r u scolding me...actually i shoudn't....
.last year i was very helpless especially before the O levels because that incident just happened before prelims....
I m scared...i am afraid of what to do...
My ex coach...Timothy Tan has been councelling me last year...till the o levels....I am really grateful for what he has done....He has told me that what past is past and forgive and forget...that's what GOD IS ALL ABOUT....ok...
But when i get here alone...i will like be sad sometimes.....although i am quite happy here....probably i am pessimistic about my future .....should i seek help?
If i seek help....who should i talk to?

actually that is meant to be a secret but since this is my blog..i should say this